I haven't written for a while as I was feeling so much fear about putting myself out there...The fear is around my own criticism of myself...Who cares what I write or don't write...I know I have to heal my deep wounds and, sorry to say, they go very deep. I need to forgive myself, my responsibility is (_) that big but others who have abused me and taken my life away, made it hard for me to be in the world are responsible for this much________________________________________________________________________________!
I had a reading done today and she said "I need to not be so hard on myself as I live in the negative"..."once i cut the ties that are like tentacles...I will find who i am and what i want...i was told i will know when i am ready, to use the camera to see what others don't see, to use the camera for what i see and feel...Abstract...
So i will come to this place when it suits me and write what the hell i want to write, use my own language and my own photos and other art forms...it's all me...Teiwaz
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