Always thinking what to say! Hard to write but here it goes!
So whats Up? Hysterectomy went well, was told that my left ovary was adhered to by bowel, no wonder I had pain all my life with 'bleeding time'. Its all over, no more cuput, fineato, finished, fin & THE END. So happy about that, you wouldn't have guessed that I was happy, would you? Ha! Now what else do I need to do to myself? Later!
Pre hospital was mad time, gf was working full time, I was dealing with Rheumatoid Arthritis, we got the house we wanted to rent and I was about to go to hospital.(plus other things, too many to mention) Our friends were fantastic in there help to move us we could not do without them. So our new house has it all, a great big house with 4 bedrooms, big new kitchen with dishwasher I might add, dinning space and family room, a small easy keep garden with native plants and a good size shed. So a room of one's own, a room for everyone. My Goddess and her almost 7 year old, also her 16 & 18 year old boys have a room too when they come and stay, the spare room or guest room. Don't think Ive had one of those before, lol.
My 21 year old said she will come to my 50th in December. OHG I'm nearly 50, but hey its good, exiting I'm cronning. Coming of age, coming of wisdom (hope so).
I'm striving every day to discover myself to grow, learn and listen. And yes I can have sex again now, havnt lost my touch. After the operation I was in so much pain I thought Id never be the same again, well I'm not the same. Something has shifted deep in my being. Ive had cathartic moments where everything seems so simple and right and others deep on a spiritual level. More on this on another post
I'm soooo lucky and blessed, I have love and feel love. I speak the truth and it is told back at me. I have friendships that are stronger than family, as mine is so discombobulated. I don't have money or own a house, I have a 1981 car that isn't running, I don't own a bed (have borrowed one) or any furniture just a couple of old pieces that I found on the roadside throw outs.
I'm not complaining. What I am saying is that I am very grateful for what I have. Its not much but I am happy, grateful and humbled by it all...
I do know what I want and perhaps need but I will leave that for next time. Although the things I what to explore are, "Inspirals Arts Inc" is a theatre company I started up years ago with someone else and left with them in 2000, due to a relationship split. The ex found me on facebook and sent me all the paperwork for IAI as she had not done anything much with it when I was living in the Pilbara. So I am in the beginning stages of setting it up again. I'm very exited about that.
So if you read this that would be good, I have to learn how to get traffic to my site. Might try a video, and some photos to sell or something...maybe the link is to long...I need to learn more about cyberspace...see ya next time
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